Family Guy | No boundaries | Secrets | Jesus

This may be a blog I’ve written in the past, but I can’t remember and am unable to access my blog archives at the moment, so here goes …

There is a Family Guy© episode in which Stewie mocks writers sitting in Starbucks. I’m going to try to find the YouTube clip if I can, and if I do, it’ll be below.

Click link (couldn’t get video to embed)

But the reason I can’t access my blog archives or look up YouTube clips is because I am in a Starbucks, writing. And, to further the attention-craving-writer stereotype, I’m on a Mac.

I’m also wearing jeans with flip-flops, a t-shirt and a watch with a leather strap. Whatever that means.

Just thought I’d throw that out there.

Now for the main purpose of this blog …

If you read my column in this week’s Kenly or Pine Level News, which I posted just prior to this blog, you’ll know that the cry of my heart is to show people how Jesus Christ was meant to be seen. At least, that’s what I think it is. Sometimes I’m pretty sure that if someone came up to me and told me I was actually showing them that, I’d think they were just messing with me. Pulling my leg.

Taking advantage of my gullibility.

Seriously though … and wow I am all over the place right now, apologies … my greatest fear is looking dumb. I look at guys I spend a majority of my time around throughout the school year while in college, and I can’t stand the thought of them thinking I am stupid, or pointless, or my thoughts are irrelevant.

To the point where it has almost completely paralyzed me in the past.

I am just now realizing that the reason it paralyzed me to, the reason I feared that image, was not as much for myself, but was for the sake of Jesus Christ. Seriously. I was so worried about producing this image of Christianity that was a weak one, that was one people wouldn’t like, that I only made myself appear weaker.

The worst part was that I made myself into something I was not, and it was not a positive, beneficial something for anyone, even myself.

So how break out of that?

To be honest, I’m not entirely positive I have. I may go back to school for my senior year, get around those people, and completely clam up again. I doubt it, and am praying the opposite occurs, but it might happen. Anything is possible as a human.

But I believe that this year will be the best of my college life. I have always heard and desired to live the way God calls us to live. Forgive the religious jargon. But what that means is that God has created life to be lived in the best possible way within his boundaries.

I think youth, young adults, sons and daughters, have always wanted to live without boundaries. Christian adults freak out these days because of the wildness of the youth, and yeah, they’re right. We’re wild. But we always have been, just as the youth of their youth were. Burning bras? The sex revolution? Hippies? That screams “no boundaries.”

Thing is, living without boundaries prevents us from breaching our ceilings.

I have recently made a decision that I thought would be the hardest of my life. Sorry I can’t be more specific, but I don’t think that people closest to me are ready for that kind of info. Don’t ask, because I won’t tell you.

Maybe one day. In a Christian self-help book or something perhaps.

But I’ve quit. I’ve tried many times before and found it impossible. But it was because I didn’t truly want to quit.

Now I do. Now, I am embracing the battle. And you know what, these past few days have been some of the most incredible I can remember. I cranked out a column in thirty minutes on Monday, without even thinking about a column all day prior. I am walking around with a mind more clear, steady, and strong than it’s been in a long, long time.

God answers prayers.

For you Christians out there, don’t give up on Jesus. He ain’t giving up on you.

And for you Buddhists, Catholics, Muslims, Hindis, Quakers, or believers in the Flying Spaghetti Monster, I just wish you could get a taste of this life. Seriously. I don’t believe in telling people what to believe. You’ll believe what you want. But I can made a strong, strong recommendation to give it a shot. Forget everything you’ve ever heard, every impression of any Christian you’ve ever seen, and just ask Jesus, God, to show you who they really are. You might get surprised.

Anything is possible as a human.

Jesus himself said so.